Not worthy

So very not worthy, I followed linky linkies to another blog just now and found a blog I used to read but somehow stopped reading, I had no idea she was even pregnant, never mind just a few weeks behind me and suffering many of the same maladies.

But that is where the similarities end - this woman can blog, good gods can she write and she has pictures too!

SPD, the pubic pain thingie I keep going on about - pictures and a proper explanation

Feelin the cranky, yup.

However, this woman like many others has fought a mighty battle to get to where she is, where I am, big and uncomfortable, and cranky. It is good for me to read something like this and remember that the cause of my discomfort and crankiness is a glorious miracle, something that many women pay dearly for and I have been given for free. I do know this, I have a dear friend and a relative who have both fought their own fertility wars (and won) but it is good for me to be reminded and remember the gift I have been given.

I have taken my medicine and apologise if I have seemed ungrateful.

1st week

So this was my first week seriously trying to stick to the GD diet. How did I do?

Not bad until Wednesday I suppose.
Yesterday, Thursday, was shite, i just couldn't be bothered, I was hungry so I ate - sue me! I didn't test my blood all day. Yes I feel bad about it, yes I know I'm giving the poor babe too much sugar but man I was fucking hungry and toast with peanut btter does not cut it as a breakfast for me, I need cereal with milk and tea and then maybe toast with a banana as I drive to work.

I'm back on the horse today, had my measly brekkie, am fucking STARVING and waiting for my oh so crappy lunch, 3 slices of bread and 3 slices of meat with a yogurt to follow, oh yummy, can't fucking wait.

Sorry about all the swearing, being hungry does not suit me. Oh and I'm constipated too thanks to the pre natal vitamins that I've started taking again, woo fucking hoo.

Food glorious food

Did you know that there's almost as much sugar in milk as in a regular soda? Nope? Me either.

Went to the endocrinologist today to try to sort out the blood sugar numbers. Lovely man, very personable, he has given me 2 weeks to try to maintain my levels myself with diet. He ouwl have liked to include exercise but I can barely walk with the pubic symphisis thingie so that's not really an option for me. He told me about the milk thing, blew my mind.

I am a milk addict! I love me some cold milk, morning noon and night, there's nothing better to drink in my world but now that I know about the sugar content I have to rethink that.

Also have to up my protein intake, not eating enough of that and supplementing with carbs 'cos I'm hungry all the time - result - high blood sugars.

So welcome to the severely restricted diet, expect many posts about how fucking pissed off I am to be monitoring every fucking bite. I'm not good with these kind of things, but if I want my VBAC I'll have to give it my best shot. BLEAGH.