It's official

I am one motherfecking cranky pants wearing woman right now. I feel HUGE, nothing fits me, nothing, seriously, I nearly wore my pjs to work today.

I ache everywhere, I can't stand up without thinking about it and staying bent over for a few minutes afterwards. I'm constipated. I have brutal indigestion, I'm dizzy, nauseous, have a headache and am just fucking PISSED OFF.

I was a total bitch this weekend, I feel like I did nothing but shout and yell at poor little man. To be fair he really is pushing buttons right now and being a cheeky little bugger but still all he got from me and big man was negative attention so it's no wonder that he sought it, at least it was attention and not "go see what Daddy is doing" Daddy's busy, go ask Mummy for a yogurt" poor kid.

I'm just out of sorts and despite a massage on Friday I still feel shite, just shite and I don't know what I need to fix it.

Sssh

I feel good today but please don't say that out loud, the nausea, constipation and fatigue will hear you and remember that they forgot about me for a little while!

Will be heading to Ireland on Thursday for my Mums birthday party - yahoo.

May not get the chance to post again for a few days, if so, apologies in advance. Will be telling the family when I'm at home, should be interesting.

Bleagh

Barely keeping head up, exhausted, nauseous, want to curl up in ball and sleep, wish I hadn't eaten at lunch time but was soooo veryyyy hungreeeeee.

Whose stupid idea was it to get pregnant again?

ooh feeling the morning sickness

first bout of morning sickness today - not terribly bad just there and a reminder of how bad it can get.

I remember weeks 6-9 being brutal last time, I'm in week 5 now so fearing the worst for next week, have been attempting to head issues off at the pass, had a lovely bowl of oatmeal this morning and been filling my face with oranges since then. No bananas though, too high in sugar.

Dug out my Healthy Eating in Pregnancy book last night so will do my best to stick to a sensible low sugar diet and avoid being an insulin junkie.

In other news, my brother and his wife had their court date in Russia today to adopt their little boy, seems like they will get to pick him up earlier than expected and could even be home with him for Xmas - what joy!

My sister-in-law and my best friends struggles with infertility have really opened my eyes, it's a cruel affliction and my heart breaks for people who try so hard to do something that other folk take for granted. My best mate has twin boys now and my sister in law finally has her little boy within her sights, happy endings all round and hopefully some salve for the battle wounds.